Smilingmoon's smile

It's not about 2020, I'm pretty sure even if the Covid-19 didn't happen, this thing will still happen to me anyway. Yeah, It seemed months passed (or year?) since I first talked about my demotivation. And dilemas, and all that stuff. And that thing still happening to me until now. I don't know when will it stop but one thing I know is that, I think i'm starting to accept it. Maybe my "self" is trying to say something to me. Maybe there is something I need to fix, Maybe I just need a step back, to look at my back for a moment ...and re-arrange my plan and strategies for future. I know right now I feel stuck, I can't move forward.. Like I said before, I still don't know why. Maybe it seemed that i'm just writing non-sense stuff, maybe it's right. But if I can write it bluntly then: I feel I'm lacking motivation to reach the stars. Well, it's not really blunt i know i'm sorry, but what i mean by the star is... my dreams . Yeah, tha...

 To be honest, banyak banget yang pengin aku tulis di blog ini sebelumnya.. Tapi, ya, karena 1 dan hal lain, nggak ketulis-tulis :") Yah, atleast not with this one. What i want to discuss in this post is about "Business".  Bukan "business" terkait ekonomi, tapi "kesibukan". Karena aku ngerasa.. Semakin lama, semakin sibuk.. Hmm, bagus sih, ya? Bahkan aku sering harus milih, mau ngelakuin kegiatan ini atau kegiatan itu. Karena saking seringnya tabrakan. Padahal mah kalau bisa, aku pengen ikutin semua, nggak mau milih:") But still, there must be a priority, so.. yeah. Oke, aku pribadi awalnya seneng sih dengan segala kesibukan yang ada.. Kuliah rapat, kuliah rapat.. Ngejalanin proker organisasi, kepanitiaan.. Tapi ujung-ujungnya, aku sadar, banyak yang aku korbanin dari hal ini.. Termasuk diriku sendiri.   Hmm tapi sebenernya nggak juga sih wkwk soalnya biar gimanapun aku paling nggak bisa dipisahin sama "ME-TIME".  Pasti aku selalu bakal...

helloo everyone, how's lifee?? Assalamu'alaikum!! Back with meee again. Alhamdulillah i feel better now, the storm had passed i think :) Just in case you're wondering (which ofcourse you wouldn't right lol), i actually was at my worst time previously, i'm kind of having mental breakdown, maybe(?) i'm not really sure what's the exact word for it but yeah the thing is that i felt reaaaaaaally bad, totally totallyyy worst feeling and i don't want to feel like that again and i hope me and you won't feel that kind of feeling (and thoughts) in the future, aamiin. In this post, i want to discuss about maturity which i was inspired about this thing after i re-watched "Zootopia". I was just exploring my hard disk back then and when i see the zootopia file i just click it and i was bored so i thought why not watch this movie for a moment and i didn't plan to finish the movie actually because i don't know why lol. Ok wait, for the next text i...