For The Parts of Me that are Still Learning

Not gonna lie, it's quite difficult to accept you,

But I'm still learning.

Nggak mudah ternyata dihadapkan dengan bagian dari diri kita yang kurang kita sukai,

Yang tidak disukai orang dan kemudian kita ketahui,

Dan kini kita harus belajar untuk menghadapi dan mengubahnya menjadi lebih baik.

Apalagi kalau itu adalah sesuatu yang kita miliki, kita lakukan, ada di diri kita bertahun-tahun.

Apalagi kalau itu adalah sesuatu yang sebelumnya, ternyata, sering kita hindari..

Dan kini kita dihadapkan lagi.

Namun kali ini berbeda, kita memilih untuk mencoba maju

dan mengahadapinya.

It's not easy.

Menghadapi diri sendiri.

And imagine, all this time you are doing just fine, you seem to be okay with yourself.

You are happy and content with your current self.

And one day, someone or some people come to you and bring this mirror.

The kind of mirror that shows your weakness, your flaws.

Then, it changes how you see yourself.

You seem insecure and now doubting yourself.

And you start to think; all this time, is this how people see me?

is this how people think of me?

And it will make you feel you are less valued, less respected, and less liked.

Maybe it's also because this time, you start to accept it.

Not like before, when you choose to ignore and run away from it.

This time, it will be different.

You start to look at that mirror. 

This time, it will be different.

You will try to accept it and change it for the better. For the better version of yourself.

This time, I believe you can. inshaAllah. Allah will be with you, dear self <3 He will. 

Don't give up to be kind, have courage and always try your best okay. 

It's okay to do it scared, to do it while your tears can't stop flowing from your eyes, or to do it while you're doubting yourself. 

Because however, what other people think about you doesn't really matter, 

but how you see yourself.

And in the end, yang paling tahu tentangmu itu adalah Tuhan dan dirimu sendiri.